Shut the hell up!

We are on a long family trip. 

So things have not been going as smoothly as I had hoped with the RV. I was on such a high from Mt Rushmore but a series of events where chipping that quickly away. 


Mt Rushmore Run

Yesterday I prayed for things to be fixed and they where not.  

I came to God with full faith. As His child. What Father would not want to help there child with this true and very real need? 

Yet He said “No” 

I was confused, hurt and thin on hope. 

I had faith?

I believed?

He wants to help?

He is my Father? 


What had I don’t wrong? What could I have done better? What is wrong with me? 

I was struggling! The Holy Spirit was answering me but I was upset and to be honest didn’t want to hear it. I felt like a rejected child. 

After some time I remember or was reminded that I was allowing Satan a foothold. I was allowing him to ruin my attitude and therefore this trip. I was allowing him to steal the high I had earlier. 

I was giving him power he should not have. 

So I finally told him, “shut the hell up.”  

 Do I understand why God did not answer my prayers? NO! 

But I do know I am loved, not alone and He Will work all things for my good! I am His child. And He will do what is best for me. 

Mind Wars- learning to love yourself and your journey

Mind wars

I took this picture of myself to see the progress

 Right off I was disappointed and upset.

I thought after two years I should be much further than this!  All I could see was the lack of definition.  I felt I was still sticking out.  I was just utterly disappointed and hurt.  I showed my husband from whom, I got a positive response. Yet I still couldn’t see it. It made me really sad for a whole day I kept looking at my goal where I wanted to be. I knew when I shifted my goal from losing weight- to getting stronger – stronger with abs, I knew I’d might not ever achieve 100% 6 pack awesomeness.  I have had 7 babies and reality has to be a part of goals.

Here is a picture close to my goal but to be honest I don’t expect that- I am a different person- but you get the idea

I want definition.

I want to be able to not see a pooch!

I don’t even know if this is possible!!!  People,  I have given birth seven babies,  but I sure want to try and so I was highly disappointed.

Then all of a sudden this negative thought series spiraled.  I looked in the mirror and started noticing the blemishes and ache. They where more than normal from my having just had my period and all these extra sweaty work outs did not help.  I started to notice all the many other little “flaws” I have. Then I started really questioning myself, what I was doing and why- was all this worth it?

Then another web began. I started to beat myself up. I started thinking all the little times I didn’t say no to that small rare treat.

Forget the fact that I’ve said, “no” to thousands of sugary sweets. I’ve watched my husband eat them on the couch. I’ve watched my kids enjoy them. Then a new web formed and another spiral started. I began thinking about how I was loosening up a little in my diet and thinking well if you really want to get there you better be more serious… all these thoughts are flooding in and the war was raging in my head.

I wasn’t loving myself.

I wasn’t loving my progress.

I definitely wasn’t doing myself any credit for the hard work I’ve done.

I was reaching uncontrolled spiraling, when I heard that voice.  Praise God for the Holy Spirit, because He came in and said, “why are you listening to these words? These Lies? Why are you taking the beauty and glory out of the hard work, I’ve encouraged you and motivated you through. Why are you stealing the joy of the stubbornness I gave you while I was knitting you in your mothers womb? Why?”

“These thoughts are not real.  This is not reality!  I love you! You should love you!  You have worked hard! I’ve given you this endurance. Instead of seeing the beauty and enjoying the fruit. You wallowing in the filth of lies!”

So am I where I want to be- No.  Maybe I’ll get there maybe I won’t!

I praise God that He helped me refocus.  Unweave the webs and spirals of lies.  Come out of the darkness and into the light so I could see.  So I could pick myself up and move forward.  So I did not end the day feeling defeated.

I am on this journey and I plan to see it through.  And with the strength of the Lord it can be done.  How far I am not sure yet but I sure as hell am not giving in or up!

There is a War and it is so very much in my mind!!!!!!

I will be persistent and consistent to the best of my abilities.  I will show my kids what it is to set a goal and work hard for it.. TO DREAM BIG and strive for that dream.

I am strong because of Christ.  Because when I am weak- He picks me up.  He encourages me to fly.

Matcha Tea – why I drink it? Recipes

So I am new to Matcha.

I have quickly fallen in love with it! 

I have always loved black tea.  However, I am not a fan of the flavor of green tea. I like the nutrient benefits of green tea but truly dislike the flavor. 

I recently began drinking coffee and was finally enjoying it only to discover I have reflux and Gerd problems– so out went coffee! 

I wanted to find a replacement for the enjoyment of the caffeine yet not upset my throat and vocal cords. 

I found Matcha. I think because I love tea. 

I first tried a Matcha Latte using almond milk:

It was really yummy, but right off I noticed it smelled a lot like sea weed. This however,  did not bother me as I eat a fair amount of sea weed and enjoy it.  It will bother some people.

What really got me excited is that I got the health benefits, caffeine and without the jitters or shakes!!!!!!!

Coffee made me very jittery and black tea will always be my favorite but I would like a little more nutrition and well… to be honest caffeine .

Next,  I researched Matcha and which tea to get. I love this site Matcha brand reviews.  This gives a simple & honest review of brands. 

I bought my Matcha and then tried it for the first time made the traditional way. The flavor was powerful. I don’t hate it but I don’t like it. I’m working my way to drinking it like this. I feel it is the healthiest way. 

So here is how I am drinking it sometimes , and enjoying it very much!

I do not have the special bamboo brother or an electric frother.  To be honest Matcha was expensive and I will have to buy those another time. So I did what I do best and improvised.

Main Recipe:

  • 2 ounces hot water below 175°
  • 4 ounces unsweetened almond milk 
  • 1/2 to 1 tsp Cerimonial Matcha (depending how strong you want it)
  • 1 tsp maple syrup or honey
  • Shaker bottle
  • Whisk ball


Place water and milk in shaker bottle.  Sprinkle Matcha powder on top. Then use same measuring spoon for syrup (saves a dish).

Place lid on tightly and shake shake shake….. shake shake shake….. shake that bottle owe….

Matcha Black Tea Latte- Jennifer Creation


  • 4 oz favorite black tea
  • 2 oz hot water (below 175°)
  • 4 oz unsweetened almond milk
  • 1 tsp Matcha
  • 1 tsp Org Maple Syrup or Raw Honey


Make favorite hot tea. 

Place hot tea, water, and milk in shaker bottle. Sprinkle Matcha powder on top. Then use same measuring spoon for syrup (saves a dish).

Place lid on tightly and shake shake shake….. shake shake shake….. shake that bottle owe….

Yummy, warm and has a nice thick froth on top!


Plank Challange


Love them…

Hate them…

not sure…

Why planks? 

Planks are an awesome, low impact way of strengthening your core! 

Strong Core- literally makes everything easier and with less injuries. 

I use to hate them. When I began 10 Seconds felt like a Year.  After 7 pregnancies and becoming very over weight my core was shot. But I was persistent and now I understand their benefit and enjoy the challenge. 

Proper form is KEY! 

Do Not skip over this section.

I can not express enough how important form is! When you do an exercise wrong you risk injury. Which in turn can become a vicious cycle.

Your out of shape ➡️ workout (wrong form) ➡️ injury (stop)➡️ back to the beginning – your out of shape.  

This can be very discouraging. But proper form and strengthening you core will really reduce your risk of injury.  So enough ranting- but it’s true! 

video to proper plank form

So this challenge format is simple.  Below I have the Challenge in picture form.  I grabbed it from Hello Healthy


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Let me know how your doing! Share pictures of your planks!

Why am I so hungry? 


I don’t know about you, but after a workout I’m ready to eat! 
However the day after a serious vigorous workout I am STARVING

Have you ever wondered why you get so hungry? 

I have! Because the hunger can be crazy.  Crazy enough for me to think “what the heck is wrong with me?”

It’s a daily challenge to control what you eat and portion sizes, but add serious hunger and the first thing you see can be the first thing you eat.  Innocent bystanders beware!

I like this post explaining why! Check it out here

Have you ever experienced this hunger?